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I don't know if what im feeling is loneliness
Pitiness or just sadness, maybe its the three of them combined in one deep feeling when all I wanna feel is love, I guess that happens when you are tired of feeling used, when you feel nobody is capable to feel something real for you.
You made up your mind, you are just not worth it, you know it, you believe it, you are certain of it, its just a matter of time for people to find out about it. Why take the chance? Why go through that? Whats the point? When you know that at the end they just going to find out what you really are.
Its 3:00 AM in the morning and I dont know where I am, I know how I got here and I know my way home, I just dont want to go there, in the middle of nowhere when nobody knows my name, nobody cares of who I am or where I come from. So I just walk and walk, keep walking trying to forget/find something/nothing... You know, no compass pointing to north, just myself without myself, its like this gigantic ball of thoughts in my head keep me blind from the mistake I know Im about to make and I just dont care, dont care about the risks, dont care about me at all, I can easily be running for my life or just standing there waiting for the death to find me.
I sat there on the street, see the night sky and for a second I remember how it was, I get sad (sadder), not a good move for me and then I see this way out, I know its not what it seems, I know its just another mistake, something I will regret but I dont care, I go for it and feel that feel of being with somebody and lie to myself tricking me to believe I want that, then I open my eyes and that mix of feelings at the beginning of this read are in me once more, nothing new, I forget about everything and pretend nothing happen when I know there is a little piece of me will not come back ever again but I dont care, I just keep going and going because after all, whats left to do other tan keep going?
Pitiness or just sadness, maybe its the three of them combined in one deep feeling when all I wanna feel is love, I guess that happens when you are tired of feeling used, when you feel nobody is capable to feel something real for you.
You made up your mind, you are just not worth it, you know it, you believe it, you are certain of it, its just a matter of time for people to find out about it. Why take the chance? Why go through that? Whats the point? When you know that at the end they just going to find out what you really are.
Its 3:00 AM in the morning and I dont know where I am, I know how I got here and I know my way home, I just dont want to go there, in the middle of nowhere when nobody knows my name, nobody cares of who I am or where I come from. So I just walk and walk, keep walking trying to forget/find something/nothing... You know, no compass pointing to north, just myself without myself, its like this gigantic ball of thoughts in my head keep me blind from the mistake I know Im about to make and I just dont care, dont care about the risks, dont care about me at all, I can easily be running for my life or just standing there waiting for the death to find me.
I sat there on the street, see the night sky and for a second I remember how it was, I get sad (sadder), not a good move for me and then I see this way out, I know its not what it seems, I know its just another mistake, something I will regret but I dont care, I go for it and feel that feel of being with somebody and lie to myself tricking me to believe I want that, then I open my eyes and that mix of feelings at the beginning of this read are in me once more, nothing new, I forget about everything and pretend nothing happen when I know there is a little piece of me will not come back ever again but I dont care, I just keep going and going because after all, whats left to do other tan keep going?
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